insistent drip

why don't you
why won't you just
why can't you just leave
why don't I get to
dictate my own terms
why don't I get to
hold on to the things I want
why do they always
just slip away.

I always make this mistake this
sober feeling things mistake this
horrible hari kari stupid mistake
this shut up and run.


"the answer to each moment must be yes"


I know I just addressed you in a letter, recently
but here I go again (self indulgent)
here I go with the i am not invisible
the insistent drip of
please stop forgetting me the
get out of my heart
or my big empty void thereof
but you just sit there
heavy.

You just stay there, don't move
I'll leave.